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05/08/2007 August in SHAug.5th
It rains heavily these days inculding the passing yesterday and sucessfully blocked me from going outside even in weekends.
In fact I should have been out in GYM, you know the rain in fact was not that hard, or at least got my ass up from the bed to take some sports, which is recently such a dream-and-nightmare-at-the-same-damn-time thing to me, so I guess blaming on the rain is just one of the most powerful reason to believe I say to myself that I should stay at home this weekend.
However, staying at home doing nothing all day long did bring some fresh air to my brain that it started thinking again, the first time out of the week that is not about business, you know what I mean thinking, the real long deep thinking, about personal affairs.
When I fall into deep thoughts, especially when it is about life periods, I like to put it into 3 parts, which most people won't get the clear mindset about even though they are doing just the same thing like I do, and that is What I have done, What I am doing and What am I gonna do.
Moving from GZ to SH is my biggest issue for June, and till now, about 2 months have passed, during which I think I have already got used to living condition and people around me.
At work, I believe I have built a strong image to my team and boss that Steve is someone who won't be easily taken place of, and good feedback from HR also came with encouraging breeze.
You did a good job Steve :D
I am happy that my boss is alike me that we share same interests and our personality fits each other, and glad that he is not too strong to deal with. However, boss is boss, although we have a lot in common and have good communications both inside and outside office, I always know that I should pay more than enough attention on my selfbehavior and can not make any mistakes that will bring him any concern, or there is still chance I get fired or at least will affect my negotiation power with HR department about salary after probation.
As to my team, putting aside that we are of couse very friendly to each other, I am tring best to let them keep up with me but it seems progress is a little bit slower than I have expected. However, they are more respective and more coadjutant. I know a younger team leader may meet with lots of troubles caused by unnecessary motives which need to be taken care of very carefully, especially when you are new to the team. Keep walking Steve!
My friends, I am happy I finally have chance to meet Ray, the best girl friend of mine in SH, and have dinner with her and her colleagues last week in a Sushi restaurant, where you can eat as much as you want anything they have if you pay only rmb 100. We did a great job that night! I felt ashamed that I had not contacted her until the second month I arrived in SH. Meeting her is nice, when we see each other, we both know that things haven't changed a little bit, we are still best friends, it is like since last time we met each other, our friendship is frozen in icebox and waiting for the next time we meet, it comes to life as fresh as that day.
This is what real friendship is like. I believe that it works the same way on my friends in GZ, like Jamie, Jack and Wing, and many others. Sometimes I couldn't help but wonder, how many good friends does one deserve in his life, they are someone you can be really relax and comfortable with, you can share your thoughts and speak whatever you want no need to hesitant if that will hurt anyone.
And I also believe that real good friends need not to keep in purposive touch, even though you don't contact for a long while, like almost forget them, but when you in need of help, they won't hesitate to give a hand, and once you happen to think of them, it is like morning breeze comes across your face.
I haven't made many friends in SH yet, it is not I don't like to make friends but such things needs time to prove. I never believe those who hook up with you or hang out with you to bars watching you get drunk are close friends.
Wel, speaking about bars and drunk, I did have something making me feel uncomfortable. I joined one of my net friend in Deep on some weekend last month, simply just because I felt he was nice. But appearently he was either too shy or too considerateless, ...(lol don't wanna speak too much about this la), in conclusion, he is not a very good host, disappointed a little bit.
Honestly, I did feel a little bit for him, and now I think I should only find a chance to awoke him from those alcohol if I find a good way. He looked slow that night in club, not attractive to me no more la.
Extreme joy begets sorrow is an chinese old saying, his attitude towards life is not that healthy in my personal opinion. However this is not my business and I guess he won't even care even if I tell him everytime I see him online.
Stepping on the land all alone, I know I am gonna stay for years in SH, at least, so I guess it is ok I start looking for someone special to share my life here. From internet I have known lots of net friends, and I did go out and meet some if I really think there is a chance. But things go wrong always. I know such things can't be pushed, so I wait and wait. This luck tring game is not that funny because it wastes time and your emotion, time and time again letting you down makes you feel tired.
The good news is, something is happening in Aug, I can forsee that! Someone from the past yet unforgetable has come up again.
Let's see what is gonna happen. This is not like any before, it comes very fiercely and very huge, I don't know if I can handle it, and such kind of uncontrollable feeling only hit me once, and now it hits again, by the same one far away from me at the moment.
Nervously and expectantly waiting.
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